bYe bYe Ah Dee

Remember waaaay back that I blogged about a cousin of mine wanting to migrate to Australia?? Well, he finally did, with his fiancee & it was so nice of them to have waited till after our wedding to do so. Coz, they played an important part in our wedding, being our BEST MAN & BRIDESMAID. It wasn't just any other title. It was a title that we all honoured & was most happy that they did it for us. Those happy moments that we shared will be in our hearts forever & we have a video that captured everything for us...right?? Hehe...

All the best, Ah Dee & Ah Sze...may God bless you both in this new chapter of your life. We'll visit you one day...in Sydney, a place that I have always wanted to go back to....:)

@ Our Wedding
Farewell Dinner with them

JaNuaRy ~ FaReWeLL MoNtH II

First there was Sharon WESTBROOK, then, Christy & Joo Nee.

Christy was an Assistant Manager that I worked with couple of years back. Well, we weren't really close but still, I remember her as someone who taught me alot of things. & she's one lucky woman blessed with a great husband & lovely kids. Well, I'm fine & comparable with the GREAT HUSBAND part, but I think it's full stop after that. Not really thinking of lovely kids for me yet...haha..

Then, the next one was a little girl, Joo Nee's farewell. She finally wanted a break & got it...lucky her! I wish I could just leave...HERE & NOW too..just like that...sigh~~but I can't...

Yeah, speaking of farewells, of course there were tears as well...sad tears, happy tears..no matter what, it's coz it's someone that matters that we let out those tears...I can easily think of some that I would not shed a tear at all when he/she leaves...how I wish that day will come ASAP!!!

Christy & I
Saja wanna put this pic here coz I think we BOTH look good in it..hehehe
Farewell, my dear Joo Nee..along with Vicky

JaNuaRy ~ FaReWeLL MoNtH

Every beginning of year, after receiving the year-end bonus of the previous years, there are bound to be resignations. This year, it was even worse due to some 'reasons', which tend to always relate to $$..of coz, else what?? Of coz there are 'other' reasons as well...& if I were to leave this shit place one day...it will fall under the 'other' reason as well.

Sad to see some of my best buddies leave...at the same time, happy for them as well coz they are able to leave this miserable place that is full of.....you know...hehe

One of the saddest one would be a buddy that both Dada & I worked with since Membership GSA days..she's a very nice, bubbly & friendly girl. Tend to break down once in a while, due to work pressure & I'm glad she shared those moments with me as a friend. I really cherish those nice, tearful yet touching moments with her, supporting & advising each other to go on & not give up. We were a great team, always helping out each other, going through ups & downs together...those were the only happy moments I have thus far working here...really miss those days. That's what we call a "TEAM"..ok..I'll always remember & cherish those moments*sniff*sniff*

However, after being assigned to different sections after being promoted, we grew apart. Kinda sad & I always blame myself for being too 'busy' & didn't think of asking her out for lunch more often. Sigh~~I keep reminding myself that I shouldn't neglect my REAL FRIENDS!! Remember!
Anyway, here are some pics we took..farewell my dear friend, but do keep in touch!

@ Westbrook's farewell
Helen, Sharon & Me..we were once GSAs
~ A great friend & work buddy~Take care & miss ya always!

Go aHeaD..LittLe KiD

Can't believe you are still so childish. Seems like, you've not grown (mentally) a single bit at all since the days we played MONOPOLY as kids. You always wanna fight with me to buy Mayfair & Parklane, to be the first to build houses & hotels there & to tease each other who will be the first to get a CHANCE to GO TO JAIL...haha...those were the days.

Now, as we've grown into 'adults' (not really sure for your case?), seems like you're still the same. The little boy, who loses his temper & whose face turns sour when mama didn't buy the video game for you as promised. You sulk & sulk like a childish kid whenever you're not given the things you wanted. Even now, as your little cousin, (Oui, c'est moi) prepares for the BIG DAY, you choose to show your childish self to me again. I really couldn't believe my eyes at first, realising what you did to me. How could you? Why would you wanna make this into such a big deal? I thought we have made peace after those sms exchanges? How come you won't let it pass & choose to do this, knowing it will hurt me? Is this your way of 'revenging'? Should I 'act like a kid' along with you & tell your mama about this? If this action is from a little kid, I won't mind, but look at you...you're in your 30s for God's sake! SHAME ON YOU!! Siu mao mao~~buat malu for bullying your cousin sister even at this age!!

Sigh...you really shocked me for doing this. Well, I'll try my best to ignore & won't let this affect me preparing for my BIG DAY. Yeah, sorry..you're NOT WORTH it..:-p

DiSaPPoiNTeD iN a FRieND

I USED to have a friend..(when I put USED to..it means USED to..) whom I thought has the same thoughts as me, the same principle in life, share the same moral values in life with similar family upbringing.

She was someone whom I shared literally the same bed when we were roommates not long ago. We have been sharing the same room for more than 2 years. We had a good relationship while we were roommates. We actually hardly see each other in the room, as we work different shifts most of the time. So, once we have the time to see each other in the room, we would be busy catching up on the latest gossips and we could go on and on and on all night. We stay up happily chatting till late at night & until we really couldn't stand it, then doze off to sleep. We had endless topics to chat about.

We help out each other at work, as well as when we're sick. I remember she called me one day when I was at work, she said she wasn't feeling well & needed to see the doctor; without any hesitation, I rushed back & escorted her to the clinic. I also made sure she was OK & had something to eat before she takes the medicine.

There was also once, when she was sick in bed and there wasn't anything to eat in the room. I quickly went to get her some hot porridge so that she could take her medicine after that.

I was excited for her when she went for her promotion interview. I encouraged her & gave her confidence. She was like a sister to me, someone I cared for & treated her like a dear friend at heart.

All this...has now changed. She has turned into a total stranger, someone that I don't know anymore. All her actions make me feel sick & it's really unbelievable how the power of $$$ could change someone. She has now done something that wayyyy back when we were roommates, we swore together that we won't be caught dead doing it...I'm really disappointed in her..I know..I can't treat her like before anymore..things have changed..SHE has changed..maybe the problem is ME..as I didn't change with her? Nope...no way..I'm who I am..

YeT aNotheR CNY aWaY froM HoMe :(

We're now less than 10 days away from CNY. Everywhere I go..I hear CNY music..no matter it's shopping centres, TV channels, radio stations..it's all GONG XI, GONG XI, GONG XI FA CAI...

I remember I used to be so excited when it's CNY around the corner since young. It's always full of hustle & bustle at home. It would be a whole lot of spring cleaning, rushing around shopping for new clothes & shoes...aunts & mummy will be busy making cookies, kuih kapit & heaps of other tasty tid-bits. Appointments with the hairstylist is a MUST DO as well. I always enjoy being pampered around to buy this & that in preparation to look my best for CNY.

However..in recent years..CNY seems like it's just any other day of the year. If not worse. Have to work alot harder all throughout the CNY period, have to control my emotions & have better EQ during those days. That's because, deep down inside, I'm so homesick! I miss my family dearly. Even more during those days. I always feel guilty..that I'm "anak derhaka" as I can't be home to celebrate the most important festival of the Chinese calendar with them.

I know the family is never complete without me. Reunion dinners on the eve have never been complete in recent years. I know, to a Chinese family, no matter how far away the children work throughout the year, parents always look forward to CNY. That's when the whole family meet up & have a reunion dinner. I know..I might sound really "kolot" for my age, but then I can't help it. Deep down, I'm still a very Chinese Chinese.

Blogging this just bring tears to my eyes. Every year, I long to have the chance to be home. To make the rest of the family happy. To be able to celebrate with them for a change. I still remember, the 1st year I was away from home for CNY (in 2001 when I was in Sydney), I called home on the 1st day. My brother told me something that made me cry on the spot. He said mum couldn't help it but cry when they were all seated at the reunion table without me. My niece, was so innocent to ask her, "Popo, why are you crying? U miss gugu is it?"

Nowadays, my mum is stronger. She told me she didn't cry anymore after that year. She told me not to shed a tear as well..coz one shouldn't cry during CNY. "Try & be strong, girl. My little cilipadi is always strong". Ok mum, I'll try. I know I have you as a role model. **I know for a fact that you miss me too..& probably hide somewhere to cry alone without letting anyone else see**

JoLiN DisaPPoinTMenT

2nite, went to a Jolin Tsai concert at City of Entertainment. Was anticipating a very hot, sexy Jolin to entertain me. However, it was a disappointment. The clothes were not the WOW kind of sexy & neither were they hot. All her outfits were any girl-next-door could wear & get.

I think the whole night, she sang less than 15 songs & at several times, I lost interest. My cool colleague beside me, even caught her missing a beat or two & forgetting the lyrics. How UNPROFESSIONAL!

The worst part was, she was so snobbish. I went backstage to see her take pics with several VIP guests. She took 2...2 pics only & ciao~~ Super Lan C! Well, Dada made a remark that I help but feel good.."cheh, my Dada prettier than her la, who wants to take pics with her oh? I only take pics of my Dada.." Muaks..isn't he sweet? He always know what is the right thing to say at the right time.. ;)

As I surfed the net back here at our love nest, I found this really cool quote by my bestie Diana, which I find very true:

"I want a man that is like a purse: looks good on your arm, carries your things,
and hopefully matches your shoes"

I think it's cool, that's every gal's goal in life..to find that man..well, I'm sure she found him in Sean, just as what I found in Dada..

BaCK to WorK

Unfortunately, all good things will need to come to an end...my long-awaited 10 days break to go back to KK has ended. Now, I'm back at work.

Well, just as I have previously mentioned, Dada said this is Life...c'est la vie! I'll just have to keep myself occupied, and wish that time flies & before I know it, it's time to go home again!

As I was busy holding my tears yesterday right before boarding at the airport, I realised something. There are several places, that we visit in life, some frequently, some not so often, that has the magic of having the very extreme happiness & very extreme sadness all under one roof:-

1. Airports:

~ arrival of loved ones = happiness
~ departure of loved ones = sadness

2. Hospitals:

~ the birth of new born babies = happiness
~ the death of loved ones = sadness
3. Churches:

~ baptism, wedding masses = happiness

~ funeral masses = sadness

Very often in life, we are at the juncture between happiness & sadness. Be it happiness or sadness, the most important thing is how we choose to face it. I'm proud to say that, this time I shed the LEAST tears when coming back to face WORK & put mum, dad & baobei behind for a while. ~sob~sob~

ProMoteD to GoD's TaBLe

Can't believe I'm under this kind of ppl. Can't decide what they want, when there is fault..blame it on the lowest ranked one..ME!! An incident 2day happens 2 make me wonder, y the hell am I still here? These ppl won't appreciate what I do, can't decide what they want, changes their mind as quickly as u can say F***, can't lead & help me progress. Why oh why am I still here???

Sometimes, I really can't find a reason y I should continue on here. If it's not coz of my dear DaDa, I would have left long long time ago. I long 4 the day that I can finally leave..or should I?? The problem is not me..y should I leave? Maybe I should start a mission to annoy THEM so much that they leave...(well, forget it, I'll choose to leave)

JoB DiSSaTisFacTioN

Yesterday's MI4 was tiring and stretched till late at nite b4 I could jump into my warm bed. MI4 wasn't that bad afterall.

I woke up this morning with a blister on my right foot due to the excessive walking around yesterday in a pair of cool but torturing shoes.

However, this is not wat annoyed me the most. Went into office as usual, and once I turn on my PC to check my mails...I'm totally disgusted with the way some ppl work around here...Juz like wat I've learned from 1 of my colleague, I'm made speechless~~~ No words could describe the way I feel inside. .No point in discussing on this topic, as little sMaLL Fish can't be expected to change the other creatures in this whole OceaN of Polluted WateRs~~